My meditation began much as any other had. Using my current favorite guided meditation by Lilou Mace (below) I relaxed into a comfy chair in my office and surrendered myself to the visuals of the meditation. At one point in the meditation Lilou tells you there is a light ahead of you on the path. Having done this meditation many times previously, I know that she continues on to say that it is beginning to take shape. Before I can even get to that part, WOOSH! She was right there, by my side, and talking (what seemed like) a mile a minute!

She was wearing a silver-blue, slick looking, iridescent, skin tight, full length, dress that flared slightly at the bottom. Her extremely tall, cone shaped headdress was of the same color and material as her dress. The dress almost had the appearance of scales. Her hair was all gathered into the headdress, but I knew from previous visions of her that her hair is jet black, shiny and perfectly straight. Her skin, a golden brown color, seemed to glow. Before I could even ask, she confirmed that she was indeed Isis, which she pronounced as if eye-sis. I bulked at this pronunciation as I know from my research that this is not the pronunciation of her name. The most accepted (by scholars) pronunciation appears to be (as if) ee-set, or a-set, but the true pronunciation was probably closer to eye-see. When I attempted to protest she promptly cut me off and told me “names do not matter.” She suggested that I was getting too hung up on details, and that doing so would be a hindrance to my progress. I gathered that she thought it wise to simply surrender to the pronunciation now common to free myself of this burden. She proceeded to tell me that she was the world, all in it, all of creation, and creator. I asked what was above her and she replied “the purity of energy from whence we all came.”

Excited by the clear vision and audio of this experience, I attempted to gather my thoughts to ask the questions I have been burning to ask. “What is happening to me? What am I becoming?” I inquired. She answered with the cryptic response of “You are, have been, and are becoming, a goddess.” I was uncertain what to make of this statement, but decided to make a mental note of it for future pondering and move on as I didn’t know how long the connection would remain as intense as it was at that moment. “Was I you?” came the next question, unbidden, from my lips. “No, but our energies merged fully in the life that you were my High Priestess.” This statement reminded me of a statement made by a friend a week or so earlier. She told me that during a past life I fully merged with the goddess Isis. She said that there was (if I remember correctly) “no difference between your energy and that of the goddess.” Still processing the huge amount of energy I had already been given, I continued “Who was I… before?” Without hesitation she said “Astarte.” Being familiar with the goddess chant, and involved in the business that I am involved in, I recognized the name, but realized I knew absolutely nothing of this person/being. All I knew was that she was an ancient goddess. Despite the fact that she had already said as such, I reeled from this revelation. Sensing I had much to learn in a short amount of time, I was forced to save my astonishment for a later time.

“What am I supposed to do?” Reiterating a message I had received from Athena in a previous session, “Learn and teach, teach and learn.”

Me: “What should my areas of focus be?”

Isis: “The cards. Cultivate a deep understanding of the cards. Become proficient in astrology and numerology. Go deeply, deeply into the cards.”

She then launched into a monologue, providing precious information and confirmation to subjects on my mind.

Please Note: the following is not for little eyes, aka children, or for those uncomfortable discussing sexuality.

Isis: “In your incarnations you are nearly always female, and nearly always deeply involved with religion and/or spirituality.” This confirmed information provided earlier by Athena, and greatly explains the tremendous draw I feel to such subjects. “Being of earth goddess energy, you are tremendously sexual. The act of love making generates life force energy. You create this energy and release it into the world, helping to sustain life and fuel growth and rebirth, and fuel your light work. You recharge your soul batteries through sex. Your partner must fuel the fire. As a creator goddess you need to fuel your passions in order to create. This is also necessary to maintain mental stability.”

Me: “What about my husband?”

Isis: “You are meant to be together to foster one anothers growth and to teach.”

Me: “What is my purpose?”

Isis: ”Raise awareness and understanding.”

Me: “Will I have more children?”

This time her answer was not as clear or direct. ”The concern is the distraction an infant would create. Distraction from your purpose.” So I suppose I am not to know yet, or perhaps it is not yet determined. Maybe a lesson I need to learn first, I a truth to come to terms with prior to receiving an answer?

After the last question she kissed me gently, but firmly, on the lips and with one last statement “Connect and touch” (hands on healing maybe?) she was gone.

I am glad to be able to share this story, and welcome the stories, experiences, and input of others. Have a blessed day!

~Anyanka

Want to learn more about meditation? It’s easy to do with some practice, and there are lots of great books on the subject!

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April 9, 2010 I was sitting in my office at the Center for the New Age in Sedona Arizona cruising websites on my laptop. It all started with a You Tube tarot video that caught my eye. I watched a couple tarot videos (tarot is my passion after all!) and then saw a Reiki video of interest. After watching a couple Reiki videos I wondered what to look at next, and in my head I heard “guided meditation.” Searching “guided meditation” I came up with a plethora of results. I’ve tried guided meditations before. In fact, I even bought one here at the Center about a year before establishing my office here, at the recommendation of Jamie, my aura reader. Although I find the meditations quite soothing, I never experienced what they seemed to imply I would. So how do I choose one from this extensive list? As I have been actively pursuing an increase in consciousness, the obvious choice was by intuition. So I sat quietly, starring at the meditations on my screen. Trusting in myself and my intuition, I easily selected one by Lilou Mace. Seating myself in a comfortable chair, I pressed play on the meditation video and closed my eyes.

This guided meditation started out as expected. A short explanation, counting you down in your consciousness, then creating the visualization. As I was being counted down I could feel myself going into a deep state of consciousness, similar to what I achieve (at a lighter level obviously) while connecting psychically. The visualization (of the guided meditation I used) begins with imagining yourself in a crowded room, finding a door to a quiet room, and settling into a comfortable chair. After you are counted down to a deep level you step into a beach scene. I decided to really experience this as I haven’t been to a beach in years, and as a Pisces this is unacceptable lol! I could feel the breeze on my skin, smell the salt in the air, feel the sand between my toes. I got really into it!

Next the meditation instructs you to see a path, and see the light at the end of that path. As the light gets closer, you begin to see your guide solidify from that light. This is the key moment… go time! This is the moment you need to truly surrender. I, admittedly, have some control issues, therefore, not an easy thing for me. I guess somehow I was just ready. I realized I had to let go, or nothing would happen. And I did. I surrendered completely to the vision and allowed it to continue on its own. And that’s when it happened. I saw her, my spirit guide!

She was walking down the path toward me, the warmest smile on her face. At first she was a little fuzzy, but she started to come in much clearer the closer she got. Her hair was just past her shoulders, big, thick, golden waves. Her skin was smooth and luminescent. She wore a white outfit which made me think of a toga. I searched google images trying to find an example, and couldn’t really find one that matched, but I believe it was some sort of toga. It was white, gathered to emphasize the bust line, flowing, with a gold colored cord at the waist. As she came toward me, I noticed a guy directly behind her. He kept blinking in and out like bad tv reception, and eventually disappeared all together. I was later told (by a psychically inclined client no less!) that his name is Ethos. I did not get to speak to him then or since, however, a fellow psychic intuited that I don’t need him yet and will connect with him some time on or after July 22nd of this year.

As my guide approached I asked her name, to which she replied “Athena.” It wasn’t until after the meditation was over that I made the connection between the manner of dress and the name. I have not yet been able to confirm whether my guide Athena is the same Athena from Greek legends, but I suspect I already know the answer to that. The goddess Athena is known as a warrior goddess, a defender, and as a teacher. Good thing I didn’t think to be star-struck at the time or it may have pulled me out of the vision!! I asked Athena if I have lived before, and was told that I have lived many many times, usually deeply involved with religion and/or spirituality. When asked how many spirit guides I have, she replied 17! This seemed like a large number to me, so I was quite astounded. Although the guided meditation track I was using only lasted a total of 8 minutes, it felt like I was under for far longer. Unfortunately, I didn’t record my experiences in a journal or post at the time. It was one of those moments which felt as if I could never forget, but already much has faded. The entire experience had a dream-like quality to it, although I am certain that I was not in fact asleep. And as dreams do, details have flitted away.

I have used this meditation several more times, usually with some degree of success. The second time I used it nothing happened. The third time I saw the guy (presumably Ethos,) but he was faint and did not communicate with me. The fourth time I connected with Athena again, and to bottom right of my vision was a beautiful Egyptian woman, but she did not speak. The fifth time I saw the Egyptian woman again, this time solo, but her words were faint. The sixth time I again connected with Athena, strongly as before, and was told that my purpose is to “learn and to teach.” My seventh attempt yielded nothing. And on the eighth attempt I was finally able to connect with the Egyptian woman, but we will save that story for another day

I feel I have learned some valuable lessons from these experiences, and I hope that my experiences are a source of guidance, hope and inspiration to others. Here are a few tips I feel may help. Please remember, these are from my own experience and my own perception. You may experience something completely different, and that is perfectly alright.

1. Just because you can’t remember the last time you psychically “saw” something does not mean it is impossible. I think the last time, prior to this experience, that I “saw” a spirit, entity, guide, etc, was when I was about 11 years old. I was frieghtened, thought I was nuts, and promptly stopped “seeing.”
2. You are unlikely to have a vision if you resist or try to control the experience. I think this was my block all along.
3. Visions (at least for me) are not cinema quality. Don’t expect a Hollywood movie to play behind your eyelids. The texture and quality of the scene matched that of my own visualizations. The difference is that I felt this take off on its own, I knew that I was no longer fully in control, and I felt the truth of the experience.
4. Hearing guides (in my experience so far) sounds very much like a thought. My visions, sadly, do not come in dolby digital! There are two things that distinguished this from a thought (a.) the answers would begin before I was finished asking the question (b.) The end of the words would seem to cut off, like when you have a bad cell phone connection. I think these are both things one learns to overlook as time progresses and the interaction is experienced multiple times.
5. Pause the meditation track once you connect with your guide if you think you can do so without bringing yourself out of the meditative state. This gives you more time to connect with your guide and receive more guidance.
6. If you don’t see something the first time, don’t panic. It may take practice. My husband didn’t see anything the first time, and my daughter only saw a ball of light. Neither of them got audio on their first try. Work on your skills of surrender, and try again another day.
7. Trust yourself. As I said earlier, much of the experience is similar to a thought. So how do you know that you are experiencing something instead of just making something up, imagining, etc? Trust & intuition.

Let’s be honest, if you have any experience in the paranormal you know that feeling of “Have I lost my marbles?” Don’t give into this self doubt. If you trust and listen, you will feel how effortlessly the information comes. If you were imagining and creating, it wouldn’t be that effortless. It would require thought. Yet if you ask your guide a question, the answer is (in my experience) instantaneous. So unless you have the answers to all of life’s questions on the tip of your tongue, it’s not coming from you lol!

{sidebar} As I am writing this my right thigh is all tingly. Waves of tingles. I wonder what that means? {end sidebar}

Guided meditation can be just what you need. It will help you relax, connect with yourself, connect with your guides and intuition, learn to hear your inner voice, and even provide concrete answers to necessary questions. Find one you resonate with and practice,practice, practice!

I will be sharing more experiences in the future. Until then, please post your own stories in the comments below as I would love to hear them!

Love and blessings,

~Anyanka

Meditation gets easier with practice, so keep trying!

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